I rather love him

Feelings... feelings.... feelings.... when do they become love? What is love.
The bible says:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4"

I loooove the way Paul wrote this... absolutely gorgeous. Love has many different meanings I think, yet they all mean the same thing in the end if that makes sense... God is love, we are supposed to love our enemies, we love our family and friends, but in the different way... we often love someone romantically, which I believe is a bit different to Godly love, family and friend love, and defiantly different to loving our enemies! Hmmm... I think that maybe when we romantically love someone, we also love them as we would love our family. Love confuses me.


I don't have feelings for Rob, I rather love him. I need him, and I can no longer live my life without him.... yet I still gain feelings for other people... I told someone this once, and they freaked out. She said that if her boyfriend had feelings for someone else, they would be over. She couldn't have feelings for someone else, and she would hate it if her boyfriend had feelings for some else. Rob is understanding ... the most understanding person I have ever met... but it still doesn't make me, having feelings for other guys, right.  
What do you think?


It took me a while to know that I am in love with Rob. He recognised his love for me first for sure...it took me a while... I think I was scared of it, even though I had always dreamed about what love would be like. Love is big, yet I didn't recognise it for a long time. I think romantic love is when you care for each other so much that you can't imagine your life without them. I also think that to love someone in that way, they have to love you back. You may have strong feelings for someone, and they don't return those feelings, but it isn't love. 


Lots to think about... but anyways after all my ranting, I know I love Rob, although I have feelings for other guys. He loves me back, and cares for me no matter what I do :) yay for Rob.

God bless
Love me
xxx