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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Happy New year...

Hi.... well it's 2013. I haven't written in a while, but much is still the same.

Rob started work at MBRC on the 7th of Jan... all is going well there. He is doing mapping stuff... kind of boring, but it is giving him experience, and it is paying well.

I also started back at Birralee Childcare on the 7th. I was pretty excited about going back, although I was expecting there to be a bit of crying... but I certainly didn't expect the constant screaming! I joined Birralee Childcare mid last year, so the babies then were mostly settled and happy. The new babies at work now aren't settled, and most of them scream for the whole 2 hours that I'm there. I pretty much have no time to do my jobs, because I have to constantly be holding the babies so that they calm down. We can't keep them inside because they wake up the other children in the center having a rest, but having them outside is worrying because the neighbors surely must think we are torturing the babies. The heat and humidity on top of all this makes it 10 times worse. Vanessa hasn't exactly been happy with me lately either. She sort of expects me to be able to get my jobs done, but I can't because she also expects me to hold the babies. I can't do anything right. Sometimes she is alright, she and I have had some good conversations, but she is usually stressed and can't handle everything so well. Her ex took her 5 year old child away just before Christmas, and she has been stressed ever since. I sort of don't know what to do. I'm trying to be as positive as possible, but her stress is making me stressed.
I'm also going to physio a lot. Work has been painful physically, and to be honest I'm doubting that I'm fit for this job. I've been thinking about becoming a Nanny, but I don't have a car... even if the family was close by, most people require you to do school drop off and pick up. The hours are tricky to figure out too, as well as the pay. Unfortunately I'm too stressed to work full time at Birralee (not that they have vacancies anyway), but I need money. I guess I figured that although being a Nanny would be full time, it would be less trouble, and the only boss I would have would be the parents. I wouldn't have to be picking up babies all the time etc. Alas, I don't know what to do. I can't figure it out.

So yeah, pretty stressed right now. I'm so thankful that I'm on full anti-depressants now. They have made me happier. I can't imagine what I would be like off them.

Appart from work and stress, i'm still sick. My sore throat is still constant , and I have no idea what God is doing with that. I would really appreciate being healed. Prayer doesn't seem to work though... I dunno *sigh*. Such is life.

Meh anyway. I am just going with it at the moment, not much I can do....


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