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Tuesday, June 5, 2012


Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I was sitting in Church on Sunday morning, having a good think about this verse. It is my favourite verse, and right now it couldn't be more helpful to me.

I have written in previous posts about my sore throat and sickness, but I haven't updated you in a while. I went to the ENT  7 weeks ago to see what he could do about my throat. I had been to the doctors 3 or 4 times and they couldn't figure out my problem. I had a number of blood tests taken, and they were all clear. By the time I went to the ENT, my sore throat had hung around for 6 months. The ENT looked at my throat and asked me a lot of questions. All he could see was that I have little lumps on the back of my throat. He put it down to Silent Reflux, which is reflux that you can't feel. I was given Somac tablets to take for 6 weeks, and when the 6 weeks was up, I was to report back to him. I did so last Tuesday.  I told him that the tablets had not done a thing, and it left him confused. He called me a medical mystery. He explained that I don't have the normal symptoms for a chronic sore throat. He checked my throat once again and noticed the little bumps like last time. He mentioned that they can be a number of things, and one of his suggestions was that they are a reaction to allergies. That made me wonder if it could be allergies, because I have had a sick stomach and a throbbing head along with my sore throat. My sick stomach has worsened more recently, and my throbbing head has become more noticeable. I told him all of the details about that, and he got a bit concerned about my throbbing head, so he wrote a referral for me to get my brain and sinuses scanned. He said that it was unlikely that there is a tumor, but there is still a possibility. I got a bit worried, but I was pleased with that idea of the scan at first, because it may help me find out what is wrong... but then I made the mistake of watching RPA last Wednesday, and there happened to be a young guy, about my age with Cancer. The slight worry I was having, turned into a bit more of a panic. I told myself that I'll be fine, and God has it under control, but it didn't stop me worrying all week. I had my Scan just yesterday, and I received the images, and was told that my ENT and normal GP will receive the images within 24 hours. I haven't received a call from them at all, so I don't know what to think. Either they haven't had a chance to look at it, or they can't see anything wrong. I don't want there to be anything seriously wrong, but I was hoping that they would find something, so that they can give me some sort of diagnosis. 
I'm fed up with having a sore throat, a throbbing head, and a sick stomach. I get sick every time I'm out. I always need to go to the toilet, and it isn't fun at all, especially when I'm not home. I'm worried about my ability to work. I received news a week or two ago, that I was accepted into Birralee Childcare Centre as casual staff, and I have two training sessions coming up on the 18th of June. After that I can be called in to work. I'm really scared that I'll be too sick. It is bad enough missing out on social activities, let alone work. 

There is so much worry there, but I guess after reading Philippians 4:6-7 again, I feel as though there is hope. It is hard to not be anxious, but I need to stop right now.

The first part says  "6 Do not be anxious about ANYTHING" that is an order, not advice. I have been told that worry is a Sin. I know that there are people who disagree with that, but I do agree. Even if it isn't a Sin, it should be! We are to trust in God at all times. 

",but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
This part of the verse is another order... pray, and give thanks no matter what the situation! Talk to God, and ask Him for help. We should never try and fix things on our own. Trust and obey!

   "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
This part is a reassurance that God has full understanding. He will guard our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

I need to do exactly this. I need to pray and trust in Him. It has been hard, and it may continue to be hard, but trust is what it is all about. It hurts not to be able to sing, it hurts that I am afraid of going out, it hurts that I don't know how to heal, It is absolutely helplessness, but surely God knows what He is doing! Amen!

                                                        Cry out to Jesus- Third Day

                                                    Who am I? Casting Crowns


Anonymous said...

hey i will talk to u in person about this but just wanted to let u know i read it. scary stuff! you learnt a valuable lesson though never watch medical shows when you're sick. if i was sick or had a drs appointment/operation coming up i couldnt even watch ER when it was on and that was fake plus one of my fav shows at the time. somehow whatever ur fear is thats always the topic on the show. im sure everything will be fine though, he was just giving u the worst case senario to cover himself. praying for u though! kat

Liss said...

Well I got the results this morning for my brain scan, and the first thing that the ENT said was that there isn't a Tumor or anything like that. The only thing he could see was that I have a slight bend in the back of my nose, but that doesn't explain any of my other symptoms. My stomach sickness has worsened over the past week, my throat has also worsened, and I still have a throbbing head. I went to my GP this morning to see if he could give me more answers... and now I'm getting an Ultra sound to check if there is anything wrong with my Stomach like gall stones. I also need more excersize and sunlight. If none of that works, I'll most likely be getting a tube down into my stomach to check my stomach that way. :/ *sigh*