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Not too happy right now. I have too many thoughts, and each of these thoughts collide. I am fed up, I have had enough, If this pain doesn't go then.... I dunno.

These are the times when I really need Jesus, but I can't seem to connect with him. One minute, I am feeling like things are looking up, and all of a sudden, things are defiantly looking down.

HELP ???? Somebody? Anybody?

Actually I feel very deserving of this pain, but I don't want it. This makes me confused. I need it to leave me alone but I deserve every bit of it. Hmmm.

" There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary, love for the broken heart. There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing, He'll meet you wherever you are." -Third day (Cry out to Jesus)

I sure hope he helps me out soon... he is my only hope.

God bless you all, and may you never ever have to deal with the same pain I have or worse.

Love me xx