Eeeek. Does this ever stop?... one minute it feels like everything is getting better, and the next minute I'm not so sure. So I am supposed to be praying, supposed to be motivated, supposed to remind myself that my thoughts are bad... not me, but it is hard. Ruth said it would be hard. I still have the same thoughts, the same everything. This is going to take a while... I knew that already... I just wish I was patient. I need to remember that not everything is fixed yet.
I sence myself becoming quite confused because of these highs and lows.